To you.....~

Dear RED ,

so here i go...~

My dear 1st of feb.

Oh Dear , my special 1st of February.
that our 1st of February where all begin of this story of our.
even words cannot describe my feelings ..
its been a years already. 
i been living in a drama in those year.
looking back , through that sun n rain .
i never regrets once, im taking this chance.
 maybe u never notice how i appreciate you,
how i love the way you laugh.
how u called my name..
the way you said how 'degil ' i am..
how i love that every time you said "merepek" 
every times i said nonsense .
i appreciate every single small things u did.
i am glad and i am thankful 
for all this chances and love that you give me.
i cannot see the ending but i am always..
praying for your happiness~  

                                                                                       
        I love you~

                                                                     

1 day ... Inn SHaa ALLAH~

Turkey~.....
Inn Shaa ALLAH 1 day .....
i'll come to you,
moga di murahkn rezeki
juga d mudahkn segala urusan..
tidak tahu kenapa
rancangan setiap tahun, i mean setiap tahun sejak aku tahun 2 di sini ingin ke sana
tidak ke sampiaan..
aku berakhir di tempat lain setiap kali cuti bermula..~
ada apa dengan mu turkey ... hurmmmmmm ~
rancang ingin ke turkey , akhirnya aku pg paris.
rancang ingi ke turkey , akhirnya aku pg itali .
tahun ni pun , rancang ingin ke turkey , akhirnya... akuuuuuu ????????
Inn Shaa ALLAH thun ni .... huhuhuhuhuhu pliz , make it happen~
usaha dulu , FIGHTING!!!!
sebenarnya sgt jelos dgn dorang yg dah smpi sana , =.=
sedihnya~

Betol serius... aku ingin ke sana ~ Fighting, fighting, fighting!!!

tafsiranmu dan komunikasiku

Aku dan maksud ku,
engkau dan kefahaman mu.

engkau lihat dan
apa yang engkau ingin lihat.
engkau baca dan
apa yang engkau ingin baca.
engkau dengar dan
apa yang engkau ingin dengar.

bukan apa yang aku lihat dan
bukan apa yang aku ingin engkau lihat.
bukan apa yang aku baca dan
bukan apa yang aku ingin engkau baca.
bukan aku dengar dan
 bukan apa yang aku ingin engkau dengar.

Aku dan ingin ku.
engkau dan ingin mu..~

salahku pada komunikasi dan bahasa ku,
salahmu hanya pada tafsiran mu.

sebenarnya,bukan itu maksudku ,
jika engkau faham apa maksudku.

...

i miss u ~

sekian kali~

Aku ingin berkata,
tidak semua yang aku fikir aku akan berkata,
tidak semua yang aku dengar aku akan berkata,
tidak semua yang aku nampak aku akan berkata,

tidak semua senyuman yang aku ukir,
bermakna gembira.
tidak semua tangisan yang aku tangisi,
bermakna duka.
 cuma aku ingin engkau tahu
aku jujur dan tidak pernah terpaksa.

Mungkin aku cuba dan  engkau juga cuba.
mungkin aku tidak mengerti dan engkau juga tidak .
tapi yang aku tahu tidak ada siapa yang salah.

Pada mula aku benci,
pada mula aku bodoh.
tapi aku belajar, belajar untuk segalanya.
dan aku bahagia.

Kini aku ingin berkata ..
Aku jujur sayang dan cinta,
TERIMA KASIH.
dan MAAF untuk segalanya ,
untuk ke sekian kalinya.

Dan kini , biarlah begini...
mungkin jalan ini lebih hikmahnya~

Kebodohan~

Aku keliru ,
kau buat aku keliru,
mereka buat aku keliru,
Aku sendiri keliru.

Bodoh,
ya, itu yang aku rasa...
membenci engkau
atau membenci diri sendiri,
mana satu yang lagi menyakitkan?
aku bertanya...

kerana membenci engkau
aku tak mampu.. mungkin juga mustahil.
membenci diri sendiri, itu sahaja yang aku tahu.
Ahh, bodohnya, itu yang aku rasa~

Bodohnya, bodohnya, bodohnya............

if only u can read my silents~

That miss rose of mine~

I got this pretty, protecting fairy,
She likes a rose to me,
lovely and poisonous.

She is so beautiful,
even i,
fascinated by her beauty sometimes,
Her rosy fume,
covered me with fascinating dreams.

but her poison also do kill me..
dawning me with her words,
suffocate me with guilty,
i cant breath,

all i seek is love,
a little comfort,
and a warm hug.

but all her see is, a broken me,
and all her do, is FIXING.
im thankful for that,
but sometimes,
i do hurt~

so tight i closed my eyes,
so silent deaf i covered my ears,
so mute i become,
so numb..

all i need is not a fixing tools,
but just a little
comfort to feel safe n sound
to tells me, ITs OK~


                                                                                           *  me n my broken English, excuse me!! :p

Always by my side~

i want to fly,

fly high,

high to that blue sky , 

dear ~

                                                                    fly with me~ .........

silent.music.playing.

sunyinya hari ini,
sunyinya hari ini,
sunyinya hari ini,
saya berasa sangat sunyi..

sepinya hari ini,
sepinya hari ini,
sepinya hari ini,
saya berasa sangat sepi....

sangat sunyi , hingga bunyi titisan air di singki dapur,
kedengaran sangat jelas..
sangat sepi , bunyi deruan angin d luar tingkap juga
kedengar sangat jelas...

walau ramai suara riuh di sebelah ... tetap sunyi kurasakan..
bunyi kesunyian yang sangat jelas, menggegarkn gegendang telinga,
biarlah, pergilah semua, berlari mencari bunyi ,
biarkan aku tenggelam dalam kesunyian ini~

kesimpulannya,.... saya berasa sangat sunyi dan sepi hari ini ~ ...... sedihnya huhuhuhuhuhu~

Our idol .....

precious of curiosity ~

i don't have any special talents , im just passionately curious ~

And yet... im still wonder ~

You only know if u let go~

Let Her Go - Passenger (Boyce Avenue feat. Hannah Trigwell )

I miss u,

no matter what they say,

no matter what they told you,

i hope u know~

Islam is beautiful

You got a questions , ALLAH answer you in every  problems ~

Empty hole ....

As the time goes by ,

the empty hole is still there,

not getting better and not getting cure.

I had walk this road before,

but i never get used to it.

even a hundred times,

the pain, is still there.

The hole is echoing

 your name,

load and clear.

I try to close you up ,

but the echo keep roaring..

even loader and clearer ....

i told u im gana be fine,

i try to be fine,

so,Dont worry ..

I am fine~

Surah Ad-Duha~

Ever feel disconnected with Allah, feel down, feel depressed or think maybe Allah doesn't love you anymore... feel like your duas are not being answered??

Watch this, Sheikh Tawfique gives a beautiful Tafsir of Surah Ad-Duha and shows how Allah loves us all and wants the best for us.

The greatest way to feel good in your heart about Allah is to read Surah ad-Dhuha and understanding its meaning.

A must watch lecture for anyone looking for an Imaan boost and appreciate the blessings of Allah in giving us all we have..

This is taken from the full lecture : Such was our Prophet (Peace be upon him) you can watch the full lecture here : 

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Peringatan , Renungan, lalu di jadikan Amalan~

Aku hanya memetik.. lalu menyampaikan :-

  1.AVIOD ANGER. HOW? Keep your wudu at all times. Prophet Sallal lahu alaihy Wasallam said if you are angry, sit down, if you’re sitting, then lie down. Follow the sunnah!

2.Don’t be rigid. It will break you. Prophet Mohammed – Sallal lahu Aleihi Wasallam (SAW means “May the blessings and the peace of Allah be upon him” (Muhammad).) said ‘I am the best amongst you and I am the best to my wife’. Being rigid and harsh will not bring you close to Allah and neither does it make you more of a man.

3.Preserve your tongue! Prophet (Sallal lahu alaihy Wasallam) said the tongue will throw people in the hell fire so watch what you say and how you say it!

4. Husnul zaan- We have a demand from Allah (swt) that we have to think good of people. Think good of others.

5. Leave the past. It brings nothing but pain and grief. It’s not your business. The past is for Allah (swt).

6.Avoid being harsh hearted and moody. Allah said of prophet (saw) ‘if you were harsh hearted they (the companions) would have left you.’ It confirms prophet (Sallal lahu alaihy Wasallam) was not harsh hearted, so GET RID OF IT.

7.Don’t think you are always right. No matter how good you are you have shortcomings. You are not perfect as the only one who was perfect in character was prophet (Sallal lahu alaihy Wasallam). Get rid of this disease.

8.Share your problems, your happiness, and your sadness .

9.Show  your smile.. IT’S A CHARITY.

10.Accept her as she is. Prophet (Sallal lahu alaihy Wasallam) said that women are created from the rib which is bent. If you try to straighten her you will break her (divorce). Prophet (Sallal lahu alaihy Wasallam) said that you may dislike one habit in her but you will like another manner in her so accept her as she is. ( yg ini sja mau mau kongsi sbb menarik heheheh....)



original from: http://muslimsupdates.com/blog/?p=209

Dear patience, please always be by my side..~

Perempuan hati perisai

Wahai si perempuan ,
hatimu yang lembut itu 
kau selindungi ia 
dengan perisai besi keras dan berduri,

Tiada yang berani dekat,
Tiada yang berani hampiri.

Wahai si perempuan,
perisai besi itu kau jaga rapi,
makin keras dan makin berduri,
tajam setiap hari.

Bila engkau terluka,
Kau gandakan tebal besinya,
kau tambahkan banyak durinya.

Ahh... perempuan hati perisai,
datang satu ketika,
bayu menyapa~ lembut sahaja sentuhannya,
kau buka perisaimu itu,
agar dapat dia mengintip sedikit ,
rahsia hati mu...

Namun, kesudahannya...
.........
hanya engkau yang tahu~

Crazy of you~

Crazy of you~

Are you listening to my heart?
Are you looking at my tears?
Only one in the world, just one
I need it to be you
Why do you keep running away from me?
Why do you keep getting far from me?
Stay by my side, hold my hand
If you love me
You drive me crazy
You make me cry
You’re close as if I can catch you
But when I do, you get far away like the wind
Love is what I do alone
Love only leaves tears
A crappy, foolish love
Can I hug you just once?
Can I say my last goodbye?
Don’t forget the loving memories, the happy
memories
You drive me crazy
You make me cry
You’re close as if I can catch you
But when I do, you get far away like the wind
Love is what I do alone
Love only leaves tears
A crappy, foolish love
Some day, when we meet again
Let’s not say goodbye
Words that my heart say, I love you
Words that my tears say, I’m sorry
No matter how much I pick them up and put them in
Words spill out
Love is what I do alone
Love only leaves tears
A crappy, foolish love~

Good morning~

 As the sun shine,

the light goes  smoothly against me ,

i cover my face with my hand ..

The shine is so bright 

i try to close my eye tightly

but your shine is so beautiful 

so i let my fingers gap for a little..

so i can smile ...

to you...

 Slowly, slowly i  open my eye 

expecting to see,

 u are there

but u already ,

gone from my sight.

Oh !! This Trembling step ~

Take a step forward~

Dalam dunia yang penuh pilihan ini,

jalan yang bersimpang,

kita selalu keliru membuat keputusan,

Antara takutkan penyesalan dan tiada keyakinan

tetapi pilihan tetap harus di lakukan ~

Pilih la mana2 jalan pun yang kamu mahu ,

yakin dan beristikharah la~

Inn Shaa ALLAH ,

tiada pilihan yang sia-sia,

Either kamu berjaya 

atau kamu belajar tentang kehidupan ~

Jangan lupa langkah guna kaki kanan =D